When you pray for God to provide

It’s funny how doubt creeps up behind you and latches onto your soul, like dark, silent parasite, draining away your faith. “Is God there?” “Does anyone hear me?” “What is the point of praying?” Prayer is as familiar to me as breathing, but I doubt. I really do, especially when it comes to the gritty … [Read more…]

Tipping over the scales: Finding grace when you feel like you just can’t get it right

I keep this silent tally in my head: “Oh, good job. You were patient and gentle with him. Good parenting moment.” “That was bad…really bad. You lost your temper AGAIN. Bad parenting, right there!” In my mind I see the scales, tipping back and forth, hoping that the good outweighs the bad and I can … [Read more…]

For this Dog I prayed

We got a dog. His name is Gus. He’s half lab, half dachshund (a labraweenie!) and he’s really, really great. I’m actually surprised at how much I like him…or even L-word him? (really? Am I there already?!) We’ve been talking about getting a dog for a long time, but it never seemed like the right … [Read more…]

God is not at the top of my priority list

I read an article a few days ago about how to have a healthy marriage. The title was intriguing but the content left me confused (and ultimately disappointed). The author’s first point was to make sure your priorities are in order: “Put God First,” she wrote. “Then husband, then children.” She assured readers that if … [Read more…]

What do you do when you want to stop caring?

I open my computer and scroll through my Facebook feed. My heart sinks and my body feels physically heavy. Rape Shootings Terrorism People killing animals Animals killing children Rants and blog responses and hateful comment threads I usually avoid throwing myself into the middle of controversies. I avoid publicly taking sides. I pray in the … [Read more…]