What does success look like?…10 years after college graduation

Some of the dear young women that I mentor graduated from college last week. I warned them, from their early college years, that it would go by in two blinks. They humored me but inwardly moaned. Graduation seemed agonizingly far away. They just wanted to hurry up and get on with life. But, now they … [Read more…]

When I ask myself “Why did I want to have kids??”

I always knew I wanted to be a mom. I played baby dolls until I was way too old for baby dolls and frequently had conversations with my sisters about what we would name our future children (“You cannot pick ‘Lydia!’ I already picked that name!”). It all seemed very rosy and romantic, motherhood. I … [Read more…]

It’s no wonder…

My friend and I chatted while sitting on my couch, ice cream bowls in our hands. She told me about how her sister was recovering from some thyroid issues after working night shift had thrown her hormones out of whack. “She’s back to days now—and she’s doing a lot better.” “Wow.” I said, my mind … [Read more…]

Fighting that Overwhelming feeling

There’s something especially horrible about feeling overwhelmed. It’s the paralysis, the circling back of a million thoughts with no resolution, the feeling of wanting to throw your hands in the air and give up, the exhaustion, and “just-whatever-I-don’t-care-anymore.” Mostly I hate the little voice in my head that whispers, “You can’t do this.” My husband … [Read more…]

My first month of Antidepressants

As humans, we have this desire to slice and dice ourselves into neat little boxes and categories. We place our body in one box, our emotions in another, our mind in the next (where do we place our soul?). Headache? Take a Tylenol. Heartache? Have a good cry or talk to a friend. Bored? Pick … [Read more…]

Do the Next Best Thing

I remember when I was teaching English Literature and Writing online and students would email me, somewhere around week five of the eight week course, completely overwhelmed. They were behind. They felt out of their element. They were paralyzed. As best as I could, via email (that wonderful, sterile communication medium), I tried to breathe … [Read more…]

It’s good to have a Plan

On Tuesday night Aaron was gone all evening refereeing two soccer matches. I usually hate these evenings. They are long, tedious, and loud as I count the minutes until Aaron gets home or bedtime, whichever comes first. I could feel that familiar dread coming on but instead of drowning in it, I decided to make … [Read more…]