When you pray for God to provide

It’s funny how doubt creeps up behind you and latches onto your soul, like dark, silent parasite, draining away your faith. “Is God there?” “Does anyone hear me?” “What is the point of praying?” Prayer is as familiar to me as breathing, but I doubt. I really do, especially when it comes to the gritty … [Read more…]

It’s no wonder…

My friend and I chatted while sitting on my couch, ice cream bowls in our hands. She told me about how her sister was recovering from some thyroid issues after working night shift had thrown her hormones out of whack. “She’s back to days now—and she’s doing a lot better.” “Wow.” I said, my mind … [Read more…]

Fighting that Overwhelming feeling

There’s something especially horrible about feeling overwhelmed. It’s the paralysis, the circling back of a million thoughts with no resolution, the feeling of wanting to throw your hands in the air and give up, the exhaustion, and “just-whatever-I-don’t-care-anymore.” Mostly I hate the little voice in my head that whispers, “You can’t do this.” My husband … [Read more…]

Talk to me about Transitions

“You’re shaking. Are you cold?” My husband asked anxiously. I exhaled deeply, the contraction loosening its grip on my body. “No,” I assured him. “It’s normal.” I’m in transition For a laboring woman, “transition” is often the most difficult part of labor. I experienced shaking and sweating as my contractions intensified, crashing down on me … [Read more…]

My first month of Antidepressants

As humans, we have this desire to slice and dice ourselves into neat little boxes and categories. We place our body in one box, our emotions in another, our mind in the next (where do we place our soul?). Headache? Take a Tylenol. Heartache? Have a good cry or talk to a friend. Bored? Pick … [Read more…]